Waiting

A few weeks ago we got a call from the agency that there was a couple interested in us! We have been praying for 4 specific requests and this couple met them all. 1, they were in a state close by where we could drive 2, they didn't need much financial help (we really don't want money to be the reason the baby is being adopted) 3, they wanted an open adoption and 4, they are pregnant with twins! We talked a lot over the next week but in the end they decided to keep the babies and raise them. There are so many mixed emotions. We are SO glad they have decided to keep their daughters and we are thankful to be part of the journey with them as they asked many questions that led them to decide to parent, we are truly happy for them. On the other side, we're a bit sad for ourselves. This seemed like the "perfect" adoption, exactly what we've been praying for and dreaming of. Why would God dangle that right in front of us then take it away? I don't know. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little frustrated with God, like he let us down (from my prospective). Thankfully I am confident that God has a plan. He loves us, He loves our future child (children?) and He has called our family to adopt. I need to wait. Waiting is hard! I'm really ready to be done waiting but I guess God isn't ready for us to be done waiting. In the waiting period we're still doing Safe Families and just hosted a 1 year old for 2 months. God is still using us and is shaping us for when the time is right to grow our family. I hope it's SOON!

Even in the ups and downs God is sending small reminders that he loves us and has a plan.
-Friends will text me randomly saying they are thinking of us and praying for us. Wow, that's humbling! God placed me on someones mind and they are praying for me when I need it.
-We have a neat relationship with the couple who was considering us, we still talk with them pretty regularly and are hoping to meet them in person one day- I'm thankful for this relationship.
-Yesterday a neighbor brought us a snowblower to give us. We've had a TON of snow this year and he said this snowblower was his contribution to our adoption, a way to help us out for when life gets really busy.

It's easy to get frustrated, to get down and lose sight but I'm so thankful for the reminders that God in in control and that there is a plan. =)

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